flowers

i don't really know what i'm supposed to write here lol

i kept thinking i'd have something important to say when the time came

something meaningful, something that would be worth reading

but i don't

so i guess i'll just write what i remember

there were sunflowers, lots of them

like a lot of them

i remember them looking a bit fake

almost like someone had put them there on purpose

like they were waiting for me

i know that's really dumb and stupid

but i don't know

does it even matter at this point??

it's been getting harder for me to tell lately

sometimes i remember things that never happened

sometimes i forget things that actually did

and sometimes i remember someone being there

looking over me

when i was alone

i liked the sunflowers

they made everything feel strangely quiet

maybe that's for the better

i don't wanna hear the wind cussing at me again

i just remember the sunflowers

just that

the beautiful flowers

the pretty sunlight

and the feeling that for once

everything was okay

if anyone actually reads this

im sorry i guess

i don't think im going to write another entry

goodbye.